it is as times such as these that i find the times we live in to be the the hardest. but then again, nothing i am going through curently is really new. we allhave at one point or anothe lost a loved one or stood at the close cliffs of despair this offers. i have recently a not as close loved one and am currently seemingly in the process of losing another. the senses begin to dull at this point. how much harder it is to see someone close pass away, slowly but surely being sapped of life until nothing remains but a husk of humanity. were this a letter of olden days, who knows, the tears my inner being has shed might have shown up, making a mockery of my stone cold exterior.
To conclude. At the current time i am not happy and it might be some time til my composure has been regained. so long.